Am I Really Helping Anyone?

Am I Really Helping Anyone?

Every Sunday I get up and play my guitar and sing for a bunch of people.  Here’s what’s going on in my head:

I get nervous
– Even though I’ve done it hundreds of times, sometimes right before we start I get nervous.  It happens a lot less now that I have the choir. I know the small army behind me has my back.  It’s comforting.

I’m really insecure about my voice – I’m a musician.  Not a singer.  I sing out of necessity.  (This isn’t me fishing for compliments.  Please don’t write me and say, “Oh Joel you have an amazing voice!”  If you do it will show that you really don’t know what you are talking about.)  I sing because that’s what you do to lead worship.  My crummy singing actually turns out to be a good thing though.  As soon as I start to feel fairly confident about myself my brother will show me the video of the previous week’s service.  Ouch!  It keeps me humble.  J

I often question the value of what I’m doing  – I look out.  Some people are singing their hearts out.  Others are standing with their arms crossed looking miserable.  Some cry.  Some raise their hands.  Some play Angry Birds.

I know the stories of lots of folks in the congregation.  Many of them are in the middle of tough situations.  How can singing some words on a screen to pounding bass and distorted guitar really do anything for them?  To be honest, I don’t know.  But I do know this:  We were made to glorify God.  Singing is one simple expression of that.  So I regularly remind myself that in some tiny way me playing guitar and doing my best to keep my voice on pitch can help people connect with God.  Then he steps in and does the supernatural part.  That’s humbling and it’s a real honor that I get to do it.

Whatever you do you are going to get nervous and insecure at times.  You’ll probably even question the value of what you are doing for the world.  Know this:  If you are doing it to the best of your ability to glorify God – that’s enough.  You do what you can and he’ll do what only he can.

“…whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.” (1 Cor. 10:31)