I’ve been baffled as of late by what God is up to with Emily and me. This morning while I was praying I said out loud, “God what are you doing?”
The first thought that popped into my head was: What does it matter what God is doing? What are you doing Joël?
I pushed the thought away. That’s unbiblical. But my mind started racing through scripture. I thought of the Parable of the Talents. (Matt. 25:14)
Now, hear me out. God’s plan matters. I need to make sure I’m always watching for what he is doing around me and getting in line with the plan. But on my most lucid day I will only understand a mustard seed worth of what he’s up to. I know his end plan – to bring himself glory – but how he does that is his prerogative.
I’m just called to do what’s in front of me. I often use lack of understanding as an excuse for inaction. I want to know how what I’m doing fits into the big picture. My part feels insignificant.
That’s why I think that thought was what I needed to hear this morning. This week. This year.
I may never understand why God is doing what he’s doing right now. But it doesn’t really matter. I just need to be faithful with what is in front of me and keep alert.