A Few Words Before We Explode

A Few Words Before We Explode



I was talking to a mega-church pastor who is my age. He told me that he had a full-on emotional breakdown before he was thirty. He has a huge church, but he paid a high price to get there.

I’ve heard similar stories over and over again. For some reason we human beings are prone to overdo it. Crazy thing is, lots of times we do it in Jesus’ name. I get that you only live once and there’s lots to do for Jesus in our short lifespan. We have to give account for what we did on earth. But somewhere deep down I wonder if Jesus isn’t actually cool with us having emotional/mental breakdowns trying to make him happy.

It’s one thing to die for Jesus. I get that. The word martyr actually means witness. Dying for Jesus shows the world how much you value him. But I’m not so sure driving yourself to psychological meltdown accomplishes the same thing.

You don’t have to look far in this world to find stress and anxiety. But peace. That’s more elusive. I see lots about peace and joy in the Bible. It seems like that should be our default. When trying to build his kingdom starts to stress you out and kill your joy to the point of illness I think a line has been crossed.

I think about something Phil Vischer said. He created Veggie Tales and the Big Idea company. The more I thought about my intense drive to build…and change the world, the more I realized I had let my ‘good work’ become an idol… The Christian life wasn’t about running like a maniac; it was about walking with God. It wasn’t about impact; it was about obedience. (from Me, Myself and Bob)

Those are words from a guy who’s been to the top and back. And that’s his conclusion. Selah. Makes me think I need to rethink a lot of what I’m doing. How much of it is building my kingdom and how much is actually building his? I’ve got a sneaking suspicion that’s the crux of the issue.

Work hard on the dream God gave you, but make sure you are walking in his peace above all else.

…Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Phil. 4:6-7