The Fears of Approaching 40

The Fears of Approaching 40

Last Monday I turned thirty-eight. Emily got up early and headed to her workout class with Elise. As soon as she left I headed to the porch to do my morning devotional. As I stepped out I heard tires squealing down the street in the direction Emily had just headed.

For the next half-hour all I could think about was just how afraid I am of losing Emily and Elise. I started thinking about how as I get closer to forty I have more to lose than at any other time in my life. I have a great family. I have a wonderful place to live. I have a ministry that is seeing some success. But I could lose all of that in a matter of a few days. (Just ask Job.)

Typically, the older you get the more you have to lose. That’s scary. Especially since God insists that there be nothing in our lives more important than him(Ex. 20:3). He’s also frighteningly good at removing those things that keep us from trusting and depending on him completely.

I’m reminded of something Corrie Ten Boom once said: Hold everything in your hands lightly, otherwise it hurts when God pries your fingers open.

The older I get the more determined I am to do just that. I want to be grateful for what I have, but recognize that at any moment, if God deems it necessary, it could all be taken from me and I could have to start with nothing.

But I have to trust that if he does take it all away just as I’m entering the prime of life – that’s ok – as long as his will is accomplished in my life. And his will is accomplished when I’m totally surrendered to what he has for me.

Don’t be afraid of losing it all in this life. Because the one thing that matters most in this life can’t be lost. That one thing, God, is eternal and he promises to never leave us.

Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you. Deut. 31:6